Illin'
Just when I think, "Gee, it's superfun to live overseas and I'm sure glad I got over being so darn homesick!" BLAM, there I am, feeling like I'm back at square one.
On my desk, I have several photographs. I have pictures of Ethan Domsch and Noah Clark (and have unsucessfully tried to convince my students that these are NOT my children), a few from Travis's and my wedding, one of my family, a couple of our dog and another random friend photo or two. I often look at these pictures; they make me smile. Today they made me randomly burst into tears. It's a good thing I didn't have students in the room, because they'd probably think I was insane if they don't already. Suddenly, I guess it just hit me that we are definitely not going home this summer. I'm still OK with this, but December just seems such an awfully long time away today. I miss my dog. I miss everybody. Blah.
So now I'm sitting in the computer/resource room between my room and another teacher's, listening to an exceedingly random selection of songs on my MP3 player, hoping to cheer myself up. It's kind of working. I did have to resist Andre 3000's encouragement to "shake it like a Polariod picture," as there are students in the next classroom who can probably see me through the window. Hi, students.
Some of this melancholy probably comes from the fact that I was listening to kind of depressing music before. I'm feeling a little better, though, thanks to OutKast, ABBA, U2 and (dear God, I can't believe I'm about to admit this online) even a Hilary Duff song. Don't think any less of me, please, in my defense my new computer came with an array of songs already on it, one of which belongs to a certain blonde popstress. If you ignore the fact that it's Hilary Duff, it is kind of a catchy song. At least this is what I tell myself so I can sleep at night. :)
On my desk, I have several photographs. I have pictures of Ethan Domsch and Noah Clark (and have unsucessfully tried to convince my students that these are NOT my children), a few from Travis's and my wedding, one of my family, a couple of our dog and another random friend photo or two. I often look at these pictures; they make me smile. Today they made me randomly burst into tears. It's a good thing I didn't have students in the room, because they'd probably think I was insane if they don't already. Suddenly, I guess it just hit me that we are definitely not going home this summer. I'm still OK with this, but December just seems such an awfully long time away today. I miss my dog. I miss everybody. Blah.
So now I'm sitting in the computer/resource room between my room and another teacher's, listening to an exceedingly random selection of songs on my MP3 player, hoping to cheer myself up. It's kind of working. I did have to resist Andre 3000's encouragement to "shake it like a Polariod picture," as there are students in the next classroom who can probably see me through the window. Hi, students.
Some of this melancholy probably comes from the fact that I was listening to kind of depressing music before. I'm feeling a little better, though, thanks to OutKast, ABBA, U2 and (dear God, I can't believe I'm about to admit this online) even a Hilary Duff song. Don't think any less of me, please, in my defense my new computer came with an array of songs already on it, one of which belongs to a certain blonde popstress. If you ignore the fact that it's Hilary Duff, it is kind of a catchy song. At least this is what I tell myself so I can sleep at night. :)
posted by Erin @ 8:53 PM
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